The trick in dying
is to not tell anyone
because they’ll cry
or try to save you.
Be quiet!
Let your body fall
apart. You can sway
and listen to the other humans
talk about magnesium
and spirulina and honey
and fifty things they do
to try and be alive.
But they aren’t alive
they are just living
and filling themselves up.
I saw a class of dancers
and how lovely they are
trying to be good at something.
I stood watching, watching them
try to be good
try to get better at something.
We have a new life
where we can participate
for no other reason than to participate.
There is nothing else in it
but a sense of achievement.
That’s what we can provide you now:
a sense of achievement.
I loved them all because they wanted
to be good at it
but what I really knew was
they wanted a story to tell.
They wanted to say
I Was There
I Did That
“oh my god I am so busy”
“I am trying to be this thing
that already exists
but I can be good at it
after a while”.
There was something wrong with me
then
because it was almost a Romanesque utopia
but I saw how now
it’s television.